Another week! And, like I had sensed by the end of last week, the nature of progress has changed somewhat – there aren’t as many big noticeable milestones to it as there were before but, in the end, there have been some pretty good gains.
It’s been a bit frustrating, in that there were a few bad days here and there – well not bad, exactly, but days with various different aches and muscle issues – but each time, the following day would be really good, with noticeable improvement, as if to make up for the day before.
So, what’s changed?
Well, I can get up from a chair now with far more ease, with the effort weighted evenly on both legs … as long as I consciously think to do it that way.
The hateful exercise, though easier by the end of last week, continued to plague me. But finally, yesterday, while not yet effortless, I was at least pain-free during the exercise and the strain was minimal.
Overall, I have far less stiffness although sitting in one position too long brings it on again. And at this point, there are very few positions to shift between. And I’m getting really tired of having to think about every shift or move before I make it, too.
For sleeping, there IS only one position – flat on my back, and I detest it. Things start off well enough when I first lie down, though it just feels awkward and wrong somehow. Thankfully, I usually drop off pretty quick and then sleep like a log, however, about five hours later, I wake up. There are two reasons for this. One, I drink far too much tea most evenings. Two, I ache. Horribly! I’ve tried pillows under one leg, the other leg, both legs – none of it works. Once awake, I’m done. I’m up, and for good most times, even if it’s 5AM. I long the day when I can once again just roll over, curl up and fall back to sleep.
In general though, I have far more ease of movement, increasing agility and feel far less fragile with each passing day.
So, what did I do?
I was kept pretty busy this week with some birthday preparations for my son’s 19th on Thursday.
I spent a few hours Tuesday evening at Bayshore Mall, discovering how frustrating it is to get between stores and floor levels.
Wednesday, I was in the Glebe, first at Slaysh, where it was a good bit of fun to hobble through the door on crutches and ask for a longboard (and they DO look cool but that’s a door that’s closed for me – sigh) then at the Glebe Emporium, where the replacement for the mug I broke two weeks ago is on back-order but, happily, still available! Finally, it was on to lunch at Irene’s Pub, for one terrific club sandwich.
Thursday, I made the birthday cake – deep, dark chocolate, with coffee buttercream and sour cherry filling between the layers, and dark, rich chocolate ganache frosting, laced with brandy. Best yet, I think!
Dinner that night, at Sushi Kan on Baseline, was great!
And the final analysis?
I have no stamina yet – those three busy days, though the effort took only a few hours each day, were incredibly exhausting! In no way would I be ready to return to work yet, even if I was fit to sit at a desk all day, which I’m not.
I have adapted to not working with rather alarming speed and fear it won’t be anywhere near as easy to return. I don’t think I’ll have any problem adapting to retirement when the time comes.
But at this point I’m getting pretty frustrated with seeing things that need doing or thinking of things I’d like to be doing and not being able to tackle them. The moments of boredom are on the rise and there’s only so much daytime TV I can take! The internet will never lose it’s appeal though and I’ve a good book or two tucked away. Maybe I’ll tackle one next week.
And that’s about as exciting as it gets for now.