What is common here though are the juniper bushes on which they grow and as I was walking back to work at lunch today, I found myself staring at a berry-laden juniper right next to the city bus transitway! At first glace, they appeared to be the young green ones that are not useable but closer inspection revealed some mature blue berries ready for harvest. Since I had an armload of stuff, was limited for time and was getting a few odd looks from passers-by, I limited my harvest to a small handful. I’ll go back when it’s not so busy and do a more thorough job. Then I’ll dry them on a windowsill for a few weeks and put them in a jar for future use.

I’ll have a few more urban harvest possibilities in coming weeks – rose hips (for jam), crab apples (spiced and preserved in jars, or jelly) and then there’s the street where black walnuts rain onto the road in the fall. There’s the puffball mushroom growing in the yard … if it survives the foot traffic. The tomatoes discovered recently at the back of the yard, sprouted from one of last year’s wayward tomatoes. And who knows what else?!

I love that there are little nuggets of goodness out there, just waiting for those who take the time to seek them out or just plain see that they’re there. There’s something immensely satisfying in harvesting these gifts of nature.

Sadly, though understandably, there are laws that prevent me from keeping a falcon, however, for a few months now, I have had my own falcons, sort of, as a pair of merlins came to nest this spring atop the 60-foot spruce tree at the back of our yard!

Merlins are small falcons, beautiful birds, whose urban population is on the increase, especially here in the Ottawa area. We’ve spent the last few months watching and listening to the rather noisy comings and goings of our resident raptors and were fairly certain in recent days, though hard to know, that there were babies in the nest.

Our suspicions were confirmed yesterday morning when I discovered a juvenile merlin perched just inches off the ground, on a rock under our apple tree. I started to approach, gingerly, so as not to alarm him (it just seemed like a ‘him’) but decided to wait and watch for a bit and went back inside, where I could watch from the kitchen window. When he continued to do nothing, even with his family calling overhead, I went back out armed with a towel and a laundry basket.

It took little to toss the towel over him and scoop him into the basket. I put the basket on the deck in hope that a parent would see him and somehow help him back up where he belonged but it became clear that was not going to happen and so the decision was made to take him out to the Wild Bird Care Centre, where they do marvelous work rehabilitating injured birds and returning them to the wild whenever possible.

Back out in the yard, we had been watching to make sure our poor little guy did not fall prey to a cat or a crow. The neighbourhood is full of crows and we had seen them harass the merlins on several occasions. There they were again, and it was soon clear why – another juvenile, unquestionable a sibling to the poor thing in the basket, was flitting amongst the mid-branches of the spruce tree and two crows were acting as a tag-team against the merlins. Action was needed!

Enter the slingshot, hastily retrieved from the basement. My son managed some well-placed shots that drove off one crow but the other swooped in on Young Merlin in the tree. He took off in an erratic flight – fear, ineptitude or perhaps both – and the crow took a strike. Downy feathers rained from the sky but Young Merlin flew on and disappeared into the maple trees across the street. Mother Merlin gave frantic calls but Young Merlin remained out of sight. But Poor Baby, in the basket, needed attention and eventually we had to hope for the best for Young Merlin and move on.

Poor Baby was silent and still on the drive to the care centre. Once there, they conducted a preliminary examination and said he didn’t look good, but gave us a reference number we could use to call and receive status reports on our bird. We were happy to hear that if he recovered enough to qualify for release, we would be able to pick him up and bring him home for release in our yard! We made a contribution to their donation box and left him in their expert care.

We watched throughout the afternoon and evening as Mother Merlin spent most of her time sitting like a sentinel on the same top-most branch of the tree, calling now and then but receiving only silence in return. It was a sad sight.

And then, this morning, I saw Young Merlin back on the lower branches of his home tree! He called as he fluttered between branches, while Mother Merlin sat in her usual spot high aloft, no longer such a sorry sight.

I came back in and phoned the Wild Bird Care Centre for a status report. Sadly, Poor Baby didn’t make it beyond early this morning.

The slingshot sits ready at the back door and we will be watching, ready to help if we can, as Young Merlin loses his last bits of baby fluff and gets good enough at flying to better fend for himself.

And I will continue to imagine, though a dream is all it will ever be, how cool it would be to raise my arm to the sky and have a falcon swoop in for a landing …

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If you live in or near Ottawa, visit the Wild Bird Care Centre (on Moodie Drive, in Nepean) to see the birds they are continually helping. Please be sure to put what you can in the donation box on your way out – the work these volunteers do is amazing and the need for supplies is never-ending.

I decided to make the first thing addressed in the book – bacon! The required sugar and kosher salt posed no problem but coming up with curing salt and pork belly took some work.

I knew from past experience that pork belly can be had from the local butcher store but has to be ordered and comes at high cost. A Toronto website listed T & T Asian Supermarket as a pork belly source and when I checked our Ottawa T & T store there it was – in approximately one-kilo chunks, at a very reasonable price!

Another site suggested Nicastro’s Italian deli as a source for curing salt and I was able to find it at their Merivale Road location, in a one-kilo bag labeled ReadyCure.

Curing Salt

Now, American recipes (like the ones in the book) call for a product called pink salt or InstaCure, which are 6.25% nitrite. The ReadyCure package didn’t list the percentage of nitrite, nor did the store staff know it, however, the package listed the Toronto manufacturer’s phone number and a quick call revealed it to be 1% nitrite.

After some wish-I-could-say-they-were-quick calculations, I was able to determine that, if I added 600 grams of kosher salt and 675 grams of sugar to my kilo of ReadyCure, I’d have three times the amount of Ruhlman’s basic dry cure (plus a bit more), at the correct percentage of nitrite. So this I did.

I’d picked up two pieces of pork belly and opted for slightly different treatments for each. The first one was dredged in approximately 75 grams of the basic dry cure and sealed in a large Ziplock bag. I did the same to the second one, but added about a quarter-cup of maple syrup. (I’ve a hunch I’ll prefer that one!)

So now it’s a 7-day waiting game, give-or-take a day perhaps, apart from a quick flip of each bag every other day. The meat will leach liquid and firm up over time. Once cured enough, it’ll be time to drain the liquid, rinse the meat, then roast or smoke it, low ‘n slow, to an internal temp of 150 degrees F. I’ve a week to sort out which it will be – while I’d far prefer to smoke it, I’m not sure I have the capability to do it as low ‘n slow as it needs to be done.

Watch for the follow-up to see which method wins and find out how each version tastes once sliced and fried. I sense it’s to be, for me, a rather long week of impatient anticipation. Hope it’s worth it!

I’m not sure which was the mistake – buying a project boat in the first place or moving up to keelboat lessons last year. Having now experienced both dinghy and keelboat sailing, keelboats rule! Had I simply stuck to dinghies, I might have completed the restoration by now and be frantic to get mobile enough (hip surgery) to be on the water. But no. So she will soon be looking for a new home with a more appreciative owner.

And as much as I’d like to jump into a keelboat of my own, this is not the year for it as I likely won’t have decent sea-legs for sailing till at least July. Perhaps some crewing opportunities will appear after that??

Switching gears to powerboats, we recently upgraded from a fishing boat to a bow-rider! I’ve only seen photos so far but I think I may soon be mobile enough for a trip to the lake* and a maiden voyage. The new boat, with a full windscreen, canopy and zip-on-and-off side panels, should make the trips to and from the island much better on rough days. Or any days really – she’s fiberglass instead of aluminum, beamier and about two feet longer (18’-something …) The seating is higher on the comfort scale and the swim platform, ladder and bigger motor mean skiing or wakeboarding is an option … not likely for me, but you never know …

So goodbye Albacore, hello bow-rider, with sweet dreams of a keelboat in a few years’ time!

*The lake is Big Rideau, where we have just over two acres of property on a 25-acre island – alas, no cottage, just a very modest sleeping cabin (OK, shed, really), however, the beauty and tranquility of the setting, the stellar view, clear water and weed-free swimming are all that really matter! The boat ride from marina-to-island is about five kilometers (three miles).

So, where am I at?

I’m walking with just a cane now and am doing much practice walking without it too. Without the cane, however, I have a definite limp – a sort of a sideways bob & waggle – that I’m working hard to lose. According to the physiotherapist, it’s a very hard thing to lose if it becomes too entrenched, which is why it’s better to stick with the cane a bit longer and be vigilant with the strengthening exercises. OK!

There’s just one problem with the cane though: it makes me feel old. Crutches are a clear indication that you are recovering from something. Not so with a cane. I was at the local mall yesterday to do some Mother’s Day shopping. It’s a destination for the elderly, in that a high number of senior’s residences and organizations bus their seniors there. As I worked my way around the mall, where I and they all had walking aids, I began to feel like one of them – it was a relief to finally escape!!

Actually, there is one other cane issue: a huge callus mid-palm on my cane hand.

I’ve been able to wave goodbye to all the other recovery aids too, most notably the raised toilet seat. For the unfamiliar, this is a seat that sits (firmly clamped) on top of the regular seat so that it’s not such a long way down (and up again). Side handles make things even easier. Nothing makes it in any way comfortable. The rest of the family was every bit as happy as me to see it go.

The other aids – the reacher/grabber and the sock aid – are things I really didn’t use at all. I either got up or got closer when I needed to reach something and, for items down low or on the floor, I used the golf reach (standing on the good leg and extending the other behind me while bending forward), which has given me a much stronger right leg! To get dressed, I went, within days of being home from the hospital, to just using my toes to get pants to within arms’ reach. As for the sock aid, well, I’ve just not worn any, opting for slip-on canvas shoes or my ratty old wool-felt Haflinger clogs, neither of which require socks. And neither of these required the long-handled shoe horn either.

A week ago, you could likely have knocked me over with a feather when I was standing unaided but I’m far more stable now and I can finally start on the exercise for lateral strength and stability that will really move me along.

I was started using the recumbent exercise bike at my last physio session and was really happy to note that the painful mid-rotation catch that had kept me off a bike for years is now gone. So, I can now go ahead and order the recumbent tadpole trike I’ve been eying! And if you’re wondering why a trike, I’m not talking about the old, upright ‘grocery cart’ trikes driven by Florida retirees – tadpole trikes are fast, fun machines!

Did I mention fun?? I test-drove a few last year – loved them, even with my bad hip. Plus, no feet off the pedals for stops and, at longer stops, a built-in place to sit. I think the trike will be a big benefit to my rehab and I hope to be able to ride it to and from work this summer.

So to sum things up, I’m half way through recovery, about two weeks away from returning to work (the 50% weight-bearing restriction pushed my return date back a bit) and generally feeling fine … in fact, still more so each day!

I finally started physio this week and, while it’s good to be moving forward that way, it sure highlighted how far I still am from full recovery. Having pushed to the limits of what I was allowed to do, it was easy to think I was pretty far down the recovery path – which I was, in a certain way – but once more was suddenly allowed, required, I suddenly felt far less able. I have tougher exercises to do now but they’re already easier now that a few days have passed. I’ll be going to physio once a week for the next six weeks or so, which is an indication right there that there’s much to be done still.

My physiotherapist was quick to chastise me for putting more than 50% of my weight on my leg when I walk. I’d figured I was, to a small degree, but apparently I’m putting a much higher percentage of weight on the leg than I thought. This disturbed me too, for a different reason – not finding that anyone could really provide clear guidance on how to gauge this at the outset, I had done my best, but was now worried that maybe I was jeopardizing my recovery. I’ve since decided, however, that pain is likely the best barometer and therefore, in its absence, I’m probably doing fine.

There was also gentle condemnation of my backless shoes. While they are frowned upon, I am cursed with problem feet but blessed with sure-footedness and good balance, both of which I regained within days of surgery. So, though I’m not urging anyone else to go against the guidelines, I opted to resume wearing my wonderful, comfortable, ugly old disintegrating Haflinger wool felt clogs a few weeks back. No problems so far.

At this point, I’m just two days away from being done with the last of my medication – the blood thinners – and of being able to start moving (legitimately) toward 100% weight-bearing! I’m so ready to be done with meds & crutches!!

I’m still sleeping on my back as I just can’t get comfortable on my side when I have to keep a big pillow between my legs and maintain all the movement restrictions. I’ll really be happy when I figure out how to make that one work.

I have another physio session in two days and can’t wait (yeah, right) to see what new exercises are thrown my way. And in eleven more days I visit the surgeon. That’s when I’ll really know how I’m doing, I guess, and find out when I’m back to work.

It’s been a bit frustrating, in that there were a few bad days here and there – well not bad, exactly, but days with various different aches and muscle issues – but each time, the following day would be really good, with noticeable improvement, as if to make up for the day before.

So, what’s changed?

Well, I can get up from a chair now with far more ease, with the effort weighted evenly on both legs … as long as I consciously think to do it that way.

The hateful exercise, though easier by the end of last week, continued to plague me. But finally, yesterday, while not yet effortless, I was at least pain-free during the exercise and the strain was minimal.

Overall, I have far less stiffness although sitting in one position too long brings it on again. And at this point, there are very few positions to shift between. And I’m getting really tired of having to think about every shift or move before I make it, too.

For sleeping, there IS only one position – flat on my back, and I detest it. Things start off well enough when I first lie down, though it just feels awkward and wrong somehow. Thankfully, I usually drop off pretty quick and then sleep like a log, however, about five hours later, I wake up. There are two reasons for this. One, I drink far too much tea most evenings. Two, I ache. Horribly! I’ve tried pillows under one leg, the other leg, both legs – none of it works. Once awake, I’m done. I’m up, and for good most times, even if it’s 5AM. I long the day when I can once again just roll over, curl up and fall back to sleep.

In general though, I have far more ease of movement, increasing agility and feel far less fragile with each passing day.

So, what did I do?

I was kept pretty busy this week with some birthday preparations for my son’s 19th on Thursday.

I spent a few hours Tuesday evening at Bayshore Mall, discovering how frustrating it is to get between stores and floor levels.

Wednesday, I was in the Glebe, first at Slaysh, where it was a good bit of fun to hobble through the door on crutches and ask for a longboard (and they DO look cool but that’s a door that’s closed for me – sigh) then at the Glebe Emporium, where the replacement for the mug I broke two weeks ago is on back-order but, happily, still available! Finally, it was on to lunch at Irene’s Pub, for one terrific club sandwich.

Thursday, I made the birthday cake – deep, dark chocolate, with coffee buttercream and sour cherry filling between the layers, and dark, rich chocolate ganache frosting, laced with brandy. Best yet, I think!

Dinner that night, at Sushi Kan on Baseline, was great!

And the final analysis?

I have no stamina yet – those three busy days, though the effort took only a few hours each day, were incredibly exhausting! In no way would I be ready to return to work yet, even if I was fit to sit at a desk all day, which I’m not.

I have adapted to not working with rather alarming speed and fear it won’t be anywhere near as easy to return. I don’t think I’ll have any problem adapting to retirement when the time comes.

But at this point I’m getting pretty frustrated with seeing things that need doing or thinking of things I’d like to be doing and not being able to tackle them. The moments of boredom are on the rise and there’s only so much daytime TV I can take! The internet will never lose it’s appeal though and I’ve a good book or two tucked away. Maybe I’ll tackle one next week.

And that’s about as exciting as it gets for now.

Saturday –
There’s less tenderness to the touch in the thigh and it’s getting easier to get in and out of bed and the car.
I walked half a bock and back and managed to do some cooking in the kitchen – my favourite beef barley soup!

Sunday –
Even though things are still tight and stiff, I can feel the ease of joint motion. Nice!
Things are tight where they weren’t before, but also loose where they weren’t either – funny.
I walked to the end of block and back today.
I would never have thought a week ago, as good as I felt then, how much improved I’d feel just one week later.
I would love to be able to touch my toes, rub my foot and do a knee-hug though.
I worry about brushing my teeth too hard or bleeding after flossing – how’s that different than what could go wrong from having dental work??

Monday –
The hip joint is loose, which is nice, but it’s apparent that the supporting muscles, of which there are more than you might imagine, need build-up again, big time.
It was a wet day, so no walk, and a day of dropping everything – very trying.
We also had a power outage for about two hours.
My sides are sore from the crutches; I’m tired of using the darned things!

Tuesday –
Imagine a life where every day, you consistently feel better!
I can finally do that impossible exercise too – not effortlessly, but better!
I’m worried though that it will become increasingly difficult to remember the restrictions.
Hard to believe how loose the hip joint and muscles are – and I thought they were loose after IMS treatments and cortisone shots!
It’s the first day of a totally dry dressing – hope it stays that way.

Wednesday –
I went for physio, which was very good, as I now know how to function on one crutch!
But it seems that, loose as things are relative to before surgery, some areas are in fact incredibly tight, so things got manipulated a bit and I now have some extra stretches to do, however, things are kinda sore this afternoon.

Thursday –
I’m not liking the one crutch thing – I worry it’s putting more weight on my leg than is good.
My bruising, of which I had surprisingly little (just one deep purple patch and larger yellow areas), is mostly gone and what’s left is hardly noticeable.
The stitches are gone! It feels so much better – looks fairly good too.
Again, I walked to the end of the block & back, after going to the Fresh Produce store on the way back from the hospital.
I sense I’ll need more physio than what is standard after hip replacement, for muscle and alignment issues that I’d hoped would just disappear after surgery.

Friday –
The bed I’m using, in the main floor office, sucks big-time – but I don’t think I’m ready to get back upstairs yet.
I’m back on one crutch again, after reassurance from my sister-in-law, and decided that I need to get a bit more aggressive with rehab – I’ve been a bit lax with the exercises but have new resolve to be more diligent with them.
I watched someone doing yoga on TV – will I ever be able to do such moves???
I’m looking forward to a dressing-free incision as of tomorrow and having only the blood thinner to take daily, after Sunday (for two more weeks).
I was a bit worried yesterday that my recovery was falling behind but today seems much better somehow.
Being a bit more aggressive seems to be paying off – at the end of the day, I feel today was a much better day than yesterday and progress has taken a leap!

I’m still on the pill cocktail of Celebrex (muscle relaxant), Lyrica (neuropathic pain reliever) Xarelto (blood thinner), however, all but the blood thinner will drop off in a few more days. The painkiller that was prescribed for use on an as-needed basis I’ve used only once.

I’ve had some aches and pains but they’ve been few and mild for the most part, and seem all muscle-related – nothing like the joint and muscle pain that existed prior to surgery.

In fact, the two biggest pains have been:
a) the crutches brushing my incision site because I can’t remember to hold them wider
b) the serious pain in my rear that kicks in later in the day from sitting – my ability to shift positions is seriously curtailed by the movement restrictions imposed après-surgery

Before surgery, my leg had a tendency to turn outward at the foot. I suspect this came from the hip socket as it is now as straight as the right one. So I think some of what I feel is my muscles around the joint adjusting to this new alignment.

I’ve concluded at this point that my quads are in pretty good shape, relatively speaking, as the exercises involving those muscles are really easy for me. My gluts need some work, and do-able exercises and walking will address this, however, where I’m really weak (and I think this is a problem that began long before surgery) is my inner thigh and groin muscles on that left side. The exercise that uses these has been a real trial, to the point where I dropped it for a few days. The outer thigh muscles I’m not really sure about yet because I’m not yet able to exercise them due to my 50% weight bearing restriction.

I’ve an appointment with my physiotherapist, in the coming week, to get a better understanding of how best to handle the 50% restriction and what to do to optimize my recovery process.

I discovered from my reflection in a mirror, that, while I my feel as though I’m walking perfectly upright, I’m in fact tilted to the right – I think it’s because I’m putting more weight on that side. So maybe physio will also help me look less like the leaning Tower of Pisa!

In the first few days after surgery my balance wasn’t 100% but it returned very quickly and feels perfect now. On Tuesday (Day 6 after surgery) I decided to ditch the walker and move to crutches. I immediately felt more mobile – I was even able to get down the three steps out and into the back yard, which made the dog very happy. The walker is still the safest option though if I need to get up at night because I’m not quite as steady on my feet then.

Frustration was a part of the week too – getting plates of food and cups of tea from kitchen to living room easy chair is a challenge! It’s disheartening to work your way around the kitchen, on crutches, to get toast or a sandwich and maneuver plate and crutches at the same time to where you want to go, only to have it slip and hit the floor once you’re just about there. And I dropped my favourite mug a few days ago (trip to Glebe Emporium coming up, to see if there’s hope of replacing it!). Everything happens at a snail’s pace – I’m not good at that!

A bit of worry and a sense of vulnerability were there at times – while walking, albeit with crutches, is going well and I often feel like I could walk unaided, I know that any unsupported instability or sudden jolt would send me crashing to the floor and I would not be able to get myself upright again. I’d likely dislocate the hip too, if that happened. If I was alone, and I am for hours each day, I’d be there till someone came home again. It’s clear that recovering at home would be impossible for a single person, at least for the first few weeks, and I’m both fortunate and grateful to have my family’s help and support. They’ve been terrific!

I was also made aware of the effects of blood thinners, first with a few nosebleeds (minor), next by biting the inside of my cheek while eating, and also from repeatedly scratching an itchy spot on my leg one evening – the next day, the spot I’d scratched was a huge 5-inch diameter bruise! All has healed well, but it leaves me wondering what would happen if the kitchen knife slipped … I’ll be glad when I’m off that medication.

Each day, there’s noticeably less tightness and stiffness. Each and every day, I tire less easily and feel better and stronger – I expect to report continued improvement in next week’s update!